I really hope I get to see Richard today. I'm really tired of not being able to see him a whole lot. He called me earlier this morning. He's on his way home for his little brother's graduation. I want to see him afterward, but he might have youth group, so I'm really hoping that won't end up being the case. Yeah, I'm freaking out a bit because I really want to see him! Ugh.
I never thought I'd fall in love again.
Ever since my last big heartbreak, I didn't want to fall in love. But shit happens sometimes. I just happened to fall in love with this guy.
The weird and funny thing is we're both pretty quiet people, so we don't really talk a whole lot when we're around each other. But somehow, I find myself falling in love with him more and more each day.
I just don't want to get hurt again like I did last time.
I can't get over how boring this summer is so far. I mean, everyone is still in school and here I am sitting at home like a lazy ass.
I'm tired of it.
Well, last night, I went to bed with a horrible headache and a stomachache, so that was lovely. Luckily when I woke up, I felt a lot better, but that's probably because I had a pretty good dream and caught up on my sleep.
Now, I'm bored as hell, and I'm unsure of what to do. I kinda want to go exercise, because otherwise, I won't lose any weight. But hey, whatever.
I must be weird because I tried weed for the first time today with Renzo, and I swear, I hate that shit. That shit is nasty. Bleh. We lit up at my elementary school in this courtyard... It felt so badass to be lighting up at a place where I had so many childhood memories from my innocent stage of life.
We smoked two bowls of that shit. He walked around all stoned, and I felt completely indifferent. Bleh.
I saw my ex today. It was awkward. He's against the guy I'm dating, so when Richard called, he got all protective of me... awkward
Anyway, I gotta go finish whatever I was doing.
Things have been crazy these past few days unpacking and shit. I guess I'm getting used to being home again after four years of being away. Crazy, isn't it?
I'm just tired of my huge to-do list, because I just want it to be over with! I'm done with everything... seriously!
And I miss Richard right now, and it's inconvenient that he's back at Job Corps, because I just want to be with him right now. Oh well, I'll see him soon.
And less than one month until VCU orientation! <3