well, i'm back in Richmond. and it's weird. it's so quiet.. i'm not sure why. weirdly enough, i kind of miss being at home. it was a lot more carefree back in Nova, now i have to worry about school and getting all my school work done. i don't really want to write about that because it's going to stress me out.
i got a letter from Wesley today. it was very weird. i don't know why i thought it was weird.. it just seemed very rushed. i read the letter twice, trying to understand why i thought it was so weird. but i couldn't figure it out, so i tried to stop thinking about.
but then i was sitting in my bed, watching tv, and i get a phone call from a "706" number. low and behold, it was Wesley. ironic, huh? it always feels so good to be able to talk to him. sometimes i forget what it's like to talk to him, and it's amazing to hear his voice. he sounds so happy, which makes me glad, because i know that this is what he wants to do. he said he got a bunch of letters in the past day, including the one that i had sent him with pictures in them. he said that even when he's upset and pissed off, just reading the letters makes him feel awesome.
being so far apart for so long is a huge test. for both of us i'm sure. i'm not sure what else to say -- i feel like i've said it all a thousand times. i'm worried, scared, but at the same time, completely head-over-heels in love with this boy. it's weird because i can feel me falling more and more, even though he's not even here. i'm not sure if that's a good thing or not. all i know is that i really hope that everything works out, i'm so nervous about what's going to happen in these upcoming months.
but you know what they say, distance makes the heart grow fonder. hopefully this works in my situation, too.