i haven't written anything in a while. and i don't really feel like writing now.
it's raining outside and it kind of sucks.
i've been really depressed since i got back from Georgia.
i really miss my boyfriend a lot, and not being able to talk to him AGAIN really blows.
i hate katie's exboyfriend with a passion.
he's such a self-righteous little asshole, it makes me sick.
i wish that i didn't have to go to class tonight, because i'm really not in the mood.
come to think of it, i'm not really in the mood for anything.
i feel kind of empty and bored.. like there's really nothing going on.
i don't really have that much to look forward to.
thanksgiving and christmas, i suppose, but both those things are far away.
i would be looking forward to getting mail, but whenever i do it takes forever for it to get here.
Wesley is supposed to send me his training ring ($200), and something that he got me.
he won't tell me what it is, but he says that it's really gay.
it's probably just something really corny. oh well.
i'm going down to Fayetteville for Thanksgiving, which is awesome.
my mom isn't really too happy about it i don't think, but there's plenty more Thanksgivings.
i'm trying to satisfy everyone at one time, and try to do things for myself.
i'm really stressed out, which isn't helping me feeling depressed at all.
i have two art things to do, one which isn't too hard but the other involves wood.
i can't seem to make time to be in the woodshop.
i tried to go today but there was another class in there, and my group never showed up.
there's a kid in my class named Curtis who i want to kill.
he's one of those kids that does EVERYTHING right and perfectly.
teacher's pet is the term.
i hate the fact that it's raining. and that it's getting dark earlier.
i want to be able to look forward to halloween, but i'm not excited anymore.
god, i miss my boyfriend. this sucks.
i hate having people telling me that our relationship is pointless.
just because we can never talk or see eachother.
even when i went down to Georgia i could feel how much stronger it was.
that gives me something to look forward to.
i told Wesley's mom that i think he's "it" for me.
i'm not sure if that was really the best idea, but oh well.
that is truely the way that i feel though, and i'm only 18.
how scary.
i feel like my life is really fucked up these days.
it'll get better after Thanksgiving i hope.