de·sert:
- verb (used with object)
1. to leave (a person, place, etc.) without intending to return, esp. in violation of a duty, promise, or the like
i can't believe that it's going to be over next semester. living with her best friend is every girls dream. my dream is over. she's leaving next semester to go home. i will get a new roommate - a new girl that i don't know. a girl that will move in a week before i get back. a girl who will most likely be completely different than me. i have never done well with change, and i probably never will. i have severe anxiety disorder that i will probably never overcome. i don't like girls and i don't intend to ever like them. i don't enjoy getting to know new people because i am content with the way that my life is already. i don't need anyone else in my life. i don't need anyone else forced into my life. i don't need to be forced into anything.
i told Wesley that i was going to get a new roommate. he said, "you have to be optimistic. you can't freak out yet, because you don't know what's going to happen. and you know, she may be really tight. and then, you know, i could maybe do that on the side." ... not really what i want my boyfriend to say.
so now i have to worry about this new girl. if she's going to be pretty. or cool. or anything like me. maybe she'll be the sweetest girl ever. or maybe she'll be a huge bitch that i want to fucking kill. and what if i hate her? then what do i do? do i move out? attempt to switch rooms? it was my room first, why should i switch?
be positive. be positive. be positive.