I knew it was going to happen and here it is. I had been saving this blog post for a day when I really and truly could not think of anything intelligent to write about. Yes, it’s true, I have blogger’s block.
In general lately I’ve felt that my blog entries have become more and more about nothing. I write on whatever I have going through my head at the moment. I checked, I have four entries in a row on my front page that are essentially me rambling about what I did that weekend, even if it’s just watching YouTube videos.
It’s as if I’m losing steam. When we first started blogging I had so much to get off my chest, even I didn’t realize how much. Something would come up or set me off and I would write a blog that I think had been writing itself for a long time and just didn’t have an outlet.
Maybe it’s just that time of year; I know it was like this in high school. As we get closer to Thanksgiving and winter break people, especially students, start to check out mentally I think. That break, all that food, presents, everything seems to be so close you can taste it! So why am I still sitting in a classroom doing work when all that food is waiting for me? We can’t let it get cold!
Can you tell I’m looking forward to Thanksgiving?
This past week has just been nuts anyways though, and not in a good way. It felt like everything was leading up to the election and Obama won and it was so awesome! I was going to blog about it and celebrate and be happy all week…and then Wednesday came.
Despite only being three days long, last Wednesday through Friday seemed to suck enough to last an entire week.
I won’t list everything that happened, I bet it wouldn’t even seem that bad, but when you know how it is, when you’re in the thick of it experiencing one little, or not so little, thing after another it just seems to build until you’re ready to just give up and cry.
What could have happened that was so bad it over shadowed the amazingness that is Obama’s election to the presidency you ask?
Well, on Wednesday, at about 1:30 in the afternoon, I thought I was having a heart attack.
Chest pains, left arm/hand felt strange plus a pulse of 112 ads up to me freaking out. I’ve been keeping track of my heart rate because we’re pretty sure I have tachycardia, a fast heart rate, and I’ve been keeping a log for my doctor. So when I started feeling these symptoms one after the other I didn’t know what else to think. I called my parents and they agreed that should get checked out just in case.
It was nothing of course, but that didn’t stop me from worrying like crazy, and it really wasn’t a good start for the rest of my week.